Nayru's Wisdom

Friday, March 21, 2008

The New Me ; 10:44 AM

Yay! A rather long-awaited post. The thing is right, since so many people reflected positively about my recent posts, I have felt a bit of pressure about blogging and expectations seem to be rather high. Which has resulted in me being slightly reluctant to blog, seeing as the posts may not meet up to expectations or something. Of course, once again, I'm going back to my old problem of being too concerned about my readers. I should just let it flow. Haha. Having said that, enjoy the post! (:

Written on 21st February (Almost a month. Wth. Haha):
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Today was a pretty great day for me! However, Tuesday was quite shitty.

Tuesday was the posting results of JAE. I guess we already knew that yuenying and Li Xin weren't going to make it, but when the actual results came it was still quite a shock. Up till now, I've been facing this with cheerful optimism, thinking that it will all turn out good in the end. Apparently not. Reality hit home and I was left reeling with emotional pain. we had a very emotional farewell as a class, and at a few points in time, I almost cried. [Edit: Apparently the girls all cried after the guys were made to leave. I think I would have cried if I stayed there too] We've only been together as a CT for about a month, and are just starting to bond, and dnow we are going to be separated?

Sigh...... I really regret not talking with Li Xin more. Yuenying should be fine, since she has like Yilina, Collin and Yangxuan. But Li Xin is like quite quiet, and I like asking quiet people to be less quiet! Also, she's like the first female Liverpool supporter I've met! (Yay Liverpool 2-0 Inter! Take that! (: ) Above all, she's a really nice person. Wish I had spent more time with her before this inevitable departure..... Hope she comes back on Friday, like Yuenying did today. Of course I feel damn happy for Yuenying, but can't help feeling very sad for Li Xin. Only few consolations are that she's just across the road, and that we might be able to get her to join CT outings! (: Anyway, as the poem goes, 人有悲欢离合，月有阴青圆缺，此事古难全, so it's rather inevitable that we will have to separate one day......

Anyway, felt really good today. [Edit: "Today" is Thursday] Yilina commented that I was "hyper", and I guess I really was. Firstly, I managed to talk to someone in my class who was rather quiet, and guessed our conversation was actually rather meaningful, instead of random conversation starters. So, guess I made another friend today. Yay! (:

Also, I played cards with some people from Mogie's CT. Didn't really know some of them, but just started chatting and all, and it was quite fun. Got to know some people, so I am quite happy with that.

Then, I went to play court. I felt that I was more confident than I was yesterday, and I played better (albeit just slightly). Was able to hold the ball abit more and made some pretty decent passes. Also scored a goal, even though it was just a simple tap from a defender's mistake. had some nice goal-scoring opportunities but did not really make use of them. Also, I realised that I need to up my physical a bit. Need to be able to hold off defenders for at least 1-2 sec to give myself time to shoot. Also, aerial control needs great working on.

Also, instead of being my usual quiet self at court, I talked to people quite a lot. Like I was talking with Yu-Wei whom I barely know, Benjamin, and I encouraged my teammates a lot. I was also like shouting random stuff when I wasn't playing. Yay, finally set a day for soccer training with ZK [Edit: We ended up cancelling it. Forgot why ><]

Overall, a lot of my responses today were rather uncharacteristic, and I hope I will continue to be this socially confident and rather loud individual. I guess today was a rather great step for me working towards this ideal."

Hm.. haven't really made much progress on this thingy since, but I guess I am more confident as compared to last year la. Haha.. Alright, realised this wasn't really a very good post, but guess it'll have to do. (: Will try to post more soon! =D